I had given up hope.
Well, almost anyway.
There were many reasons for that.
I was enervated.
I was exhausted.
All that time I spent flashes before my eyes.
Searching for that intangible that would make my life.
I had died a little every day,
As I tried to find out where I belong.
Money measured up only to an extent.
Success lost its flair after a while.
Even Power didn't seem to deliver.
I laughed many empty laughs during this journey.
I suffered many bruises to my self worth.
At the back of my mind, I knew though.
I was after various pursuits because
I wanted to wipe out that thought.
Searching for that intangible that would make my life.
It would be pure and it would be beautiful.
But try as I did, I could not locate it.
All the roads I travelled didn't lead me to it.
All the people I met, couldn't tell me where it was.
So, I wiped out that thought from my mind.
I joined the ever growing list of cynics.
My motto became: "I didn't see it. So it doesn't exist."
Though I could numb my mind effectively,
My heart refused to believe otherswise.
Of late, the battle between my heart and mind
Has attained a transcendental status.
The noise fills my head all around.
Everyday it gets that much tougher to defeat reason.
The voices cannot be made to go away.
Then one fine day, I found you.
I wasn't even looking for you.
With my hands in my pockets, deep in my thoughts,
I was walking by without taking notice.
You suddenly emereged in front of me.
You were pure and you were beautiful.
You were something I always wanted.
Even before I could say any thing.
You looked at me, and you smiled.
It appeared as if words didn't matter.
And then we walked along.
I knew you would be a part of my life from now on.
The funny thing is, when I was looking for you,
I could never find you.
I could never even feel your presence.
When I stopped looking,
You appeared out of nowhere.
As if somebody up there in the heavens,
Listened to my prayers.
As if you were sent by God himself.
Serendipity...
According to American Heritage Dictionary, Serendipity can be:
1. The faculty of making fortunate discoveries by accident.
2. The fact or occurrence of such discoveries.
3. An instance of making such a discovery.
Well, almost anyway.
There were many reasons for that.
I was enervated.
I was exhausted.
All that time I spent flashes before my eyes.
Searching for that intangible that would make my life.
I had died a little every day,
As I tried to find out where I belong.
Money measured up only to an extent.
Success lost its flair after a while.
Even Power didn't seem to deliver.
I laughed many empty laughs during this journey.
I suffered many bruises to my self worth.
At the back of my mind, I knew though.
I was after various pursuits because
I wanted to wipe out that thought.
Searching for that intangible that would make my life.
It would be pure and it would be beautiful.
But try as I did, I could not locate it.
All the roads I travelled didn't lead me to it.
All the people I met, couldn't tell me where it was.
So, I wiped out that thought from my mind.
I joined the ever growing list of cynics.
My motto became: "I didn't see it. So it doesn't exist."
Though I could numb my mind effectively,
My heart refused to believe otherswise.
Of late, the battle between my heart and mind
Has attained a transcendental status.
The noise fills my head all around.
Everyday it gets that much tougher to defeat reason.
The voices cannot be made to go away.
Then one fine day, I found you.
I wasn't even looking for you.
With my hands in my pockets, deep in my thoughts,
I was walking by without taking notice.
You suddenly emereged in front of me.
You were pure and you were beautiful.
You were something I always wanted.
Even before I could say any thing.
You looked at me, and you smiled.
It appeared as if words didn't matter.
And then we walked along.
I knew you would be a part of my life from now on.
The funny thing is, when I was looking for you,
I could never find you.
I could never even feel your presence.
When I stopped looking,
You appeared out of nowhere.
As if somebody up there in the heavens,
Listened to my prayers.
As if you were sent by God himself.
Serendipity...
According to American Heritage Dictionary, Serendipity can be:
1. The faculty of making fortunate discoveries by accident.
2. The fact or occurrence of such discoveries.
3. An instance of making such a discovery.
:) It almost felt you found something tangible. :)
ReplyDeleteThe allure of the intangible, the indescribable and the one that cannot be found... is always so attractive. Can't speak of how it feels once the quest is fulfilled. But the quest in itself is addictive. :) Almost beckoning. :)
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